When Fingers' Rampage Works On The Blacks And Whites....: March 2010

不知曾经何时，
寂寞走进我的心中，
在那里落地生根，
再也拔除不了。
虽然活在钢骨水泥中，
自小跟许多不同背景的人接触，
然而，
心里总是有一处空洞。
我曾经尝试许多不同的方法，
试着去填满这处被遗漏的心灵。
我没骗大家，
为了这个目的，
我甚至学坏过。
开心的时候，莫名的伤感会忽然地侵蚀我，
不让我拥有100分的开心。
伤心的时候，总是会有无关痛痒的事情降临，
好让我烦上加烦。。。
有时候真的很累，
看别人很累，
看自己更加累。。
我以为自己已经放得下，
直到后来，
我终究还是忘不了。。。
我到底该怎么办？！！
妈的！到底有完没完啊！
我真的受够了！

Hi people. How r u guys doing? Had been away from blogger for don't-know-how-long ady. Well...Be it good or bad thing, i had really gone through a lot of things within these few months. Relationships with people, studies, religion, funs and blah....around 3 weeks ago, the week when everyone was busy with their preparation for the trials, i was no different other than them, spending sleepless nights in larry's room for my revisions. However, this was also nothing more than a part of my ordinary life. My life has been in this trend since the moment i enrolled in this campus, or perhaps even a longer time before that....what followed next was the 2 weeks of trial tests. Inevitably, i had spent much lesser time for sleeping. In fact, it had been a long time that i didn't sleep on a bed. It was either that i didn't sleep, or slept on sofa. No choice, i was left without much time, crap, i m talking this again. But really, there are only 2 months left from when i m gonna sit for my real a level exams...blah blah....although these 2 weeks were really tough for me, as long as i remember my God and friends, it would worth all the sacrifices. I know, there r a lot of people who skipped the services in churches just to spend more time for their revisions but, from what i have learned, we should always remember Christ regardless of whatever situations and conditions we are getting into. HE is always there, by our sides, in our hearts, to give guides and directions so that we wouldn't be missing and gain the balance in between. When difficult time befalls, HE soothes our souls. And so do we lift HIS name up as good moments portray our lives. By saying all these i m not to uphold myself how much i love my God. I know i still have much more to be done for that purpose...but at least, i will try to do my parts as a Christian. Attend the services, sing His songs, make my daily prayers, serve in the name of His and remember Him....thanks larry. I have no regrets for being a Christian, really.....my trials just ended last friday.Right after that, i went to music block and practised some piano songs. Wah...so long ady i didn't touch a piano with my fingers....then, i went to Midvalley with friends: Larry, Kugan, Mahen, Ming, and Kalai. Oic...3 indians, 2.5 chineses and 0.5 bumi (Ooops...sorry larry... :p..). Kugan was the driver. In the car, we seriously just talked craps. For instance, we supposed that Kugan should drive like a MAN as we compared him to Zaharah. And finally, we concluded that Kugan can drive like a MAN, as he made a steep, smooth and fast U-turn on a junction. Kugan, u rock man...so we reached midvalley at around 1.30pm. Ate our lunch in food court and then watched a movie called From Paris With Love. This movie was great, prized for all its vulgar words. Very uncivilised! Should have brought Jonathan Wong along! I think he could have died of heart attack straightaway.....'when i ask u to shoot the MF, u shoot the MF.' hehe...decipher the meaning urself....after the movie, we loitered around, entered MPH and browsed through some books. At around 4.45pm, we left midvalley and headed to KL sentral. Ming, Kalai and Mahen went back 1st while larry and i would be attending Friend's night in City Harvest Church! Yeah! Larry came to my church at last!!! As usual, the event started at 8pm. There weren't so many people, relatively and comparatively, as this event was split into a few nights according to zones. During the night, we played games, watched band performance by indie band, competition of talents, beat-box performance (again...), game of guessing the flavours, lucky draws....a lot lah...we really had fun. U guys may view the photos for closer approach. So, the event ended at around 10pm. We met Hisham's gang who were just back from a movie called Allice In The Wonderland at Sunway in Subang Jaya KTM station by chance. blah blah....that night was really crazy. I m not gonna mention it here as i will just keep it as secret in my another page. Well, for this, at first i felt so bad and not happy with it. It took me quite a while to come to realize that it worth all the humiliation for sake of friendships. Thanks gang of Irsyadiee, u guys rocked my life! :) On sunday, i went to larry's New Life Church for service. Just a normal day....but wait, larry told me that they all (his roommates Aliff and Hisham) were going out to lowyat plaza that evening. So, i joined the gang. ^^ That night was fantastic. Upon reaching lowyat plaza, i separated from the gang bcoz i wished to walk around and explored new technologies. This is my hobby in truth, just that i rarely had time for it, not when i had so many exams to cope with during the previous sems. K. Larry bought his laptop adaptor and hisham bought a gundam model.....at 11.50pm, we watched a midnight movie, which i dont know what is its name...swt...i think i m really not suited for war movies lah. Those blazing gunshots were giving me a headache. very dizzy....after that, we spent our night in Mac D. Larry did his report and i did my physics papers. The rest were watching football live match. And slept...zzz...swt....we reached our hostel at 8am. pengsan!.........well today,i went out with larry, jan, and cecelia to go out to sunway. Another friend of theirs, Alan joined us for ice-skating in sunway too. We arrived at 10am ( swt...i also didn't know why we came so early for what....). Basically, what had we done today was simple. Ice-skated for the whole afternoon after having lunch in Kim Gary, AGAIN!!! I was told by Cecelia that i looked like one of the waitors in Kim Gary. Wth...then i msn with kakak the following night and she told me that there was really a guy who looked alike to me as she went there after tests last time. swt....she said i share the same expression with him oh...moody face...well, this is my very natural, fundamental look ady. I can't do anything if u guys are bothered with it! :p hmm....for ice-skating, well, needless to say, my legs were aching like craps! hehe....that is what we call 'pay to suffer'.

Midvalley trip ( Friday, 12 March 2010 )