4 months after studying in Intec Shah Alam.....

4 months of hell days in intec have really given me all the MOTIVATION in writing this blog. Don't really know what to write, so i think it is better for me to define the situation which has caused me such a trauma. Hmm.... 4 months ago, 29th June 2008, i still manage to recall the situation where i was being the first time in the accomodation ( i mean my hostel ). For ur information, i was so lonely when i was among the first few early birds who arrived at the hostel. On that day, i saw people walking in the gangs and talking to each others as if they had known each other ady ( yeah..perhaps they did). Envy them man! I didn't have any friends who came with me ( a sad case), and yet they all looked strangers to me. Therefore, i had been absolutely alone and quiet for the next few days, even after the orientation week, till the day i had my very first lesson, which i think was the maths period. Flashing back to that day, i still remember i was sitting alone at the front row, and then being quiet for the rest of the day ( not when the lecturers asked us to ice-break with each other lah!).

Haih....what can i do....i have always been, and still is, a quiet yet dull person. I know it is time for me to make changes in my life, or otherwise i will definitely get myself into a big trouble in aspect of communication with my classmates as well as housemates. Furthermore, there were all kinds of presentation in the next few months ( from which i had just done the last one few days ago) that required us to TALK. Talking to one person itself is ady a hard task for me, and now i were asked to talk to my god-damned smart classmates. Haih....i did try to communicate with the others, especially girls ( i don't mean bad here, because i am from boy school plus i am not talkactive, i will somehow face difficulties in having conversation with them). Well....time has proven it true, though it is still not perfectly realized yet. Sometimes i still prefer to be alone with myself. Now, my classmates, especially those malay guys who are sitting at the row right behind me, seriously like to make fun of me man! But they weren't trying to show their hostility. Instead, this is their way to express kindness ( i seriously can't find any other better words). Haha....

Okay. Before i proceed on any further, let me tell something else which i think have really widened my horizon. First thing first, which i never expect it to be changed, my writing speed. Hmm.... tell u all right, all those a level tests over here are crazy ones, especially the bio tests. Not saying those tests are godlike tough, but most students here always find themselves not having enough time to scribble down their answers. For my case, haih....lagi susah... i have a classmate who can write terribly fast ( sometimes i even wondered if she is writing human language). Therefore, i also tried to be like her and started writing fast so that i would be able to gain enough time for myself to complete my homework and the test papers as well. Apart from that, i also have a roommate who is being so philosophic to me. Yeah... he is very talkactive (actually telling all kinds of bullshits, which i can't help it..) and i was among the few ones who had always been LECTURED by him. Well....he often touched about some sensitive issues, but i personally think that this is one of the avenues to engage in good critical thinking. When talking to him, i always had to turn my brain upside down to meet his very challenging personal thoughts. haha... but also quite often, i did some stupid stuffs on my roommates, because the life over is so boring and meaningless! Sometimes, i even come to think that making people suffered might have brought u more joy! Haha... my old friends will definitely be shocked when they get to know this (become so evil ady, hehe!).

During these few months, i was also involved in some activities organised by intec. 2 months ago, there was a food festival in my college and some of my friends and i were involved. This time, at least, i could do something else other than homework and studies. Through this event, i get to know about those basic steps in making sushi foods, though the taste still sucks..hehe... Besides that, i also had some outings with my housemates and classmates ( well....only to Sunway Pyramid). Yeah! These were seriously the only times i could temporarily forget about the studies and take my time to enjoy the days! My classmates and i usually went to sunway right after we had done the tests ( luckily we did it...to overcome the depression caused by those tests, just like last week...). And i seriously salute my classmates man! They could shop around for hours ( or u may say for the whole evening and night) without fatigue whereas my backbone was ady aching! Perhaps it was because i was carrying my bag with plenty of books inside it gua! So, shopping may somehow improve one's stamina, i have no doubt for it. May use this as the example for my next presentation if possible. haha!

And today, i met my old form 6 classmates in a restaurant at Pudu. Miss them a lot man! They all had just done their school exams and was doing a meeting in the restaurant to discuss about the organisation of an upcoming school event. After that, we went to times square and loitered around. Hmm.... Well, that is basically all about my life in the past 4 months. I can't really tell them all because there are still plenty to tell! I am taking my study-leave which lasts for 2 weeks, and it is going to be NO LIFE for me. Have to study for days and nights to be ready for my coming end of semester tests. K. Gonna study now... another sleepless night man! Haih.... life is tough..