我的外婆

我很爱我的外婆，很爱很爱很爱。。。2012年4月13日 (星期五），我外婆被送进医院，一进就进了ICU ( Intensive Care Unit )。我当时还在IMU，是家人给了一通电话向我说明外婆的状况。她发高烧了。我当时真的被吓呆，因为我外婆一向来身体都不错，而且她应经81岁，所以是一件我绝对不喜欢听到的事情。当我下课后 ( 7:30pm )，我赶到医院去。。。。。婆婆当时还清醒，但是身上插满了管道( nasogastric tube, pulse oximeter, urinary catheter.....)。医生说，我婆婆的尿管生了石头，而且还是很大粒的那种，所以要依靠catheter来输尿。还有，她的肠胃不能正常操作 ( something like intestinal atony which i am not sure whether it is the proper term or not, where peristalsis can no longer take place)，因此粪便已经累积到她的胃部去 （因为nasogastric tube也排出了粪便）。婆婆的血压和心跳都很高( around 159/90 mmHg and 120 bpm ), 所以根本没医生敢为她动手术。我吓得几乎要哭了出来。。。。星期六，原本是打算参与我大学所举办的晚宴IMU Ball，但我知道我不能去，因为我得守在婆婆的身边。婆婆一直吵着要出院，还一度要拔开身上的tubes, 护士们没办法，只好绑住她的双手。婆婆求我为她松绑，但我不依，非常心痛。。。。星期日，婆婆又发高烧，而且多数时间都在睡。。。星期一，我在IMU接到妈妈的电话。她说，婆婆没得救了。不能救了。我当场在图书馆哭了。之后来到医院，得知婆婆剩下不多时间。我当场崩溃。。。结果，隔天早上，我婆婆走了。死因是septicemia。婆婆入土的那一天，我完全没哭，因为那天也正好是她的生日，我不想哭得像小孩一样。。。婆婆去世后至今，我几乎每晚都在哭。我无法接受一位养育我22年的亲人这样离我而去。我真的太爱我的外婆。。。还记得小时候，外婆每天都牵着我的小手去上学。下课了，她会带着食物，在食堂等我。回家后，还得为我们准备晚餐和洗衣服。有时候，我在游乐场玩得太晚，婆婆会来，大声地喊我的名字，把我给拉回去。有一次更加离谱，婆婆锁门不让我出去玩，就很生气，很用力地把婆婆家的板墙踢穿，露了个大洞。那时候，我几乎每天惹父亲生气和挨藤鞭，结果都是会抱着外婆的屁股避难（那时的我很矮。。。）。我的婆婆，从来没受过学校教育，不识字，也不会什么人生大道理。然而，让我由此至终敬佩和爱护婆婆的地方，是她那颗对儿女，孙子们的那份关怀，与大爱。我婆婆从来不过问我的学业，只关心我们是否每天都吃得饱，健不健康。即使婆婆已经年上高龄，她的家务事从来没终止过，直到她病倒的那一天。我妈妈告诉我，以前家里很穷，婆婆得工作来帮补家庭开销。她从事过开档卖糕点，到甚至在餐馆里打杂 （洗碗碟，算筷子等之类的杂务）。当时，我听了就觉得心酸，原来婆婆以前过得一点都不容易，也开始对自己没工作却能过着舒逸的生活带有点惭愧。不过，自中学开始，我开始逐一改掉我的坏习惯。我不再那么好玩，反之我变得非常好学，好胜 （我觉得我的小学老师们知道后肯定会跌破眼镜。。。）。从中一的全级第111名（我可告诉你，这成绩在我学校真的是非常烂。。。），中二 的第六名，中三 的第三名。。。。。。直到SPM 14个一级甲等， 我真的非常努力了。一来我真的很爱学习，二来我希望让婆婆开心 （though i don't think that she could appreciate the excellency of these results as she had never been educated），因为我曾经告诉她我想成为医生。我想让她骄傲（认识我的朋友都知道我真的很黏我的婆婆，因为从小到大我多数时间都是陪在婆婆身边）。。。。。现在，我将进入医学课程第三年。但是，婆婆已经不在了。而明天，是婆婆去世后的第一百天。我开始感慨，这几年发生的事情实在是太多。无论是感情上的创伤，学业上的挫折，遇上赌烂的人，我全都经历过。但值得高兴的是，我遇上很多（也没有很多，但就比以前多）很棒的朋友们。与其以前一直只会啃书，我现在已真正懂得the meaning of "enjoy life"! 我对目前的生活不排斥，但也没说很满意啦，偶尔都会出现让我觉得赌烂的事情。我已没能为婆婆做些什么，只但愿天天过得开心，健康，好好照顾自己。这样，我想婆婆应该没有遗憾了。婆婆的离去，的确重重地伤透我的心。这种痛，我以前就认为会很痛，但是，没亲身经历过，是永远不会真正明白的那种痛。这星期一，是我的生日。与往年一样，我都是一个人过，到哪里逛逛还是做些什么的，但是以前婆婆都会陪在身边。而下星期就开学了。不说了，我不想再哭。在这之前，我想感谢一些陪我走过困难时期的人，谢谢你们，有你们真好。也想告诉大家说，请真心珍惜身边每一个人，无论是亲人，朋友或是伴侣。也许有时会发生不愉快的事情，但也别讨厌与憎恨对方。感情的裂缝，是要修补的，而不是抛弃，最后，因为短期间我并不会再写了，因此我想在这里许下我的诺言：将来的以后，我肯定会是个很棒的医生！！I promise. ;-)

Fiery Warpath Walkthrough

Hi there, just get bored with study and feel like writing something here. Well, mousehunt is my favourite. This is the Fiery Warpath walkthrough that i wrote personally for my friend recently. I will just share it here for anyone who r interested. This is seriously a very brief walkthrough, which i tried to make it as simple as possible (which i dont even mention the exact names of the mice). For detailed information, u must still refer to the mousehunt wiki. Thanks.... :-)

1st thing, the formation of Fiery Warpath (FW) is as following:

Wave 1: 3 Physical breeds.

Wave 2: 3 Physical, plus 1 Hydro and 1 Tactical breeds.

Wave 3: 3 Physical+1 Hydro+1 Tactical, and another Arcane breeds.

Wave 4: 12 Theurgy + Warmonger (Boss, invulnerable unless all 12 Theurgy have been captured)

Use of charms is important in FW. Physical charms got 3 types (Warrior, Scout and Archer), can be bought. Some need to be crafted: Mage charm is for Hydro mice, and Cavalry charm is for Tactical mice. There is no charm for Arcane mice. Then, there r 2 versions for ALL the charms i had explained to u just now: basic version (only attraction effect), and super version (require magic essence, better attraction rate (sort of....) and additional power damage). U can see a meter below the horn, showing the types and number of mice that u need to defeat b4 u r able to proceed to the next wave. So, talking about effects of charms, when u have captured 3 SAME mice IN A ROW, it causes extra 2 mice to retreat, meaning tht u have defeated 5 mice in total. Then, when u capture ANOTHER 3 mice, tht means 6 IN A ROW, u will further cause retreat of 4 mice, meaning tht u have defeated an amount of original 6 (in a row), plus 2 retreats during '3 in a row' and finally another 4 retreats during '6 in a row', so now the total mice u have defeated is 6+2+4=12 mice from tht particular breed! Well, if u r damn lucky, and ur streak is still undergoing, a Gargantuamouse (Gaga) will be released when u get streak 7 (7 in a row). From this point onwards, Gaga mouse may pop out at any time to break ur streak, ranging from after streak 7, to a max of streak 9. Oh ya, when u get 9 in a row, u cause additional 6 mice to retreat, but it is very difficult, i seldom got it. When u get streak 9, Gaga mouse will come for SURE. Well, i got one incidence b4, where it didnt appear as the 10th mouse, and i got a streak 10 bcoz i forgot to change to Ice Maiden, but this is very very rare. Gaga is a 100% capture using Ice Maiden, no worry, just tht u have to be good in estimating which streak it will appear.

Besides Gaga, u will also encounter 2 support mice which may appear occasionally through the waves (except wave 4). Crimson Commander, once u capture it, it basically works in an enhanced way of getting normal streaks. For instance, when u successfully capture a Commander mouse upon ur streak 5, u NOT ONLY cause 5 retreats for the mice in ur streak, but as well as 5 retreats for all the OTHER breeds in ur CURRENT wave. If u r in wave 3, meaning tht u have 6 breeds in total now, so u will cause a sum of 30 mice to retreat in this case. There r commander charms to be used to manually attract it, but only given after u settle one wave (wave 1-3), and also from Warmonger mouse. oh ya, the other mouse is Caravan, and it works in the opposite way. It causes reinforcement of MORE mice to ur wave, but only when u FTC it, if u capture then got nothing. However, if u have many friends hunting at FW too, the reinforcement can be avoided, funny oh?

Finally, regarding the ultimate aims for hunting at FW, u r advised to get different trap parts from Warmonger, one at a time only. Similar to tht of ZT, but the different thing here is tht the Warmonger WOULDN'T drop the trap part every time. In total, u need to get 2 Sandblasted Metals, 1 Sphynx Crystal, and 1 Oasis Bead to craft Sandstorm Monstrobot, Sphynx Wrath, and Water Oasis Node Trap, the 3 ultimate traps available in mousehunt so far. The 1st Warmonger u catch will give u a trap part for SURE.

My personal advices, not necessarily for u to follow though, is 1st to get 2 victories ( one victory means completing 4 waves) at FW. Why 2 victories instead of just ONE? 1stly, u need to get enough flameshards to craft a trap ( mentioned later). 2ndly, u need 2 victories as prerequisite for tht trap as well. After tht, u move to Muridae Market, and rebuild cheese shoppe, general store and trapsmith there, and then purchase Sandtail Sentinel ( a MUST, unless u r freaking lucky to get 2 Sandblasted Metals in a row for ur 1st 2 victories to craft Monstrobot. Well, Sei Ji got 3 in a row, shit him. =_=!! ) U may also consider buying Dimensional Chest Trap (Tactical, dont need to buy if u get crystal ady, up to you la...), but it seems to me tht Sandtail Sentinel just works as fine for Tactical mice in FW. Then, if u want, u can travel back to FW and continue farming for ur loots using SS. Or u can start doing ur Crystal Library assignments, but in this case u will have to buy the Dimensional Chest Trap bcoz most assignments r at Furoma and ZT, u shall know why la. Regarding the baits to use in FW, Brie is quite good for wave 1 and 2, but i m a bit kiasu and impatient, so i stick to gouda to maximize the streaks. Gouda is recommended in wave 3, bcoz wave 3 is seriously killing. And, use SB+ wherever possible to maintain ur streaks, like when u ady get streak 5, then use SB+ to get streak 6 to cause retreats. Commander charms will come in handy at this time. oh ya, U can just use Enraged Rhinobot for all the mice in FW, including hydro, tactical and arcane, but less effective la. I did tht bcoz didnt want to use charms ( need simple orbs to craft..) for tactical and hydro mice. U plan urself la.

FW boosts ur golds and points like mad also. Tactical mice r damn rich (5200 in wave 2, and 6000 in wave 3). Regarding the duration of getting one victory, according to my experience and analysis, even if u hunt 24 hours per day non-stop, u still need 5-7 days using ER, or 4-6 days using SS), depending on ur luck. haha, i think u need one week plus. My fastest record is 4 days, bcoz i spent my commander charms like crazy and i was lucky enough to catch the commanders, but i never use super charms la. Don't waste time hunting at Derr Dunes ady.

Enjoy the hunt. :-)

Random thought

Just passed by and would like to drop a piece of thought. Recently i feel damn bored. Bored, bored, BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! Celaka punya sem 3, screw u upside down! U seriously freak me out! Waliaoooooooooooooo weiiiiiii!!!!!!!! @______________@

Just a short diary. :-)

Well, this is just a short post. I may write another 'long' one for compensation in future. In short, i had done my semester 2 in IMU. Time flies, seriously. In the blink of an eye, 3 months had passed swiftly. I am having my one-month holidays, which i think it will still be sort of procrastination for me to do anything fruitful. Online and outings are things that keep me occupied for the moment. Outing huh? In a nutshell, RM150+ being spent within 2 outings. I seriously cannot recall what the heck i had eaten, except the 4 movies i had watched, two of which were 3D. oh ya, got Nando...no wonder, shit!!!....... I m just too lazy and frustrated to initiate any study plans for my coming sem 3 after months of hell-like revision works. But luckily, my exams result is still not bad and above average. Praise the Lord, for me to have a peaceful holidays now. Blah blah blah, my life is peaceful now. Playing my mousehunt as usual, and gonna improve my crafting skills soon. Regarding mousehunt, haha, i m doing quite not bad, it is a traditional facebook game among the IMU students. Why is it so? 1stly, we can play it at all times, even if u r busy with revisions. The MAIN thing which we need to play mh is to sound the horn every 15 minutes, as simple as that. But of coz, u have to replenish ur baits upon depletion or change it in order to catch particular types of mice. U can also move to other places if u get bored with one place. Well, in fact, the game is not exactly as simple as it may sound here. This is just an OVERVIEW anyway. But really lah, i get to relax and rid of my nerdy appearance. Good thing!! XD Ok, done with mousehunt. Currently, i m reading up a novel called The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown, which i think is famous enough among the English readers. Wow, Dan Brown is really amazing, going through his book is like reading a scientific journal. In this book, it mentions about Noetic Science, which is a science established based on the concept that the human minds and thoughts possess MASS. It is very physical, and as what we had learned from physics, a physical object with mass produces gravity, and gravity gives rise to: FORCE, undeniably. For example, the human body. The body has gravity, thus it exerts force toward the Earth. To make it clearer, the human body and the Earth are attracted and pulled toward each other, this is what i have understood so far, though it might not be ALL. Therefore, if many people are thinking about the same thing, or having the same emotion at the same time, the forces from human minds may converge and thus become more powerful, in a way that they can alter the physical world we are living in. This is psychic ady, or even way beyond it. This is insane. I m addicted, and gonna finish it ASAP. #drooling# Ok, time to go. I m quite sleepy now, but then i still wish to continue with the novel. Gonna read more of them soon. If u guys have any good recommended books or articles to overwhelm my thirst, please don't hesitate to drop me a message here. Nitez people. :-)

#Paiseh for my jialat English...haha....

First diary after so long on year 2011.....

Yo, it has been another long time since i wrote my last post. 4 months? or 5 months? I don't remember. What i know is that time passed really fast for me nowadays. I barely recall what i had done in INTEC, except the surprising birthday party for Larry at cemara where he was splashed with the cake by Cedric. So yeah, i would just write this post as far as i remember.....i begin my imu journey on 23rd August 2010, starting off with 2 weeks of orientation. 2 WEEKS of ORIENTATION, what the heck?! I was thinking that time: I had been fooling around throughout the 2 months of holidays, and am i gonna play again NOW?!! I hope i wasn't, but there it happened. I stayed for 90% of the orientation events, except only one afternoon as i accidentally fall asleep in my ex-roommate's house. It was a Wednesday. No choice lah, had to stay till so late every night. I was damn tired, or even exhausted throughout these 2 weeks. Can u imagine tht the orientation which could last for half a day, into midnight?!! At least 12 hours were gone like that each day. But anyway, all these were still considerably awesome bcoz through these events, they did establish friendships among us. I worked and played like mad during the orientation!.......After the orientation, all of us were busy with respective revisions and studies. Basically, albeit only 2 hours of lectures per day, it was still no-life afterall. Why was it so? After the lectures, some or even worst, MOST of us, including me, started our revision till late night or more terribly, early morning. While burying myself with studies, there it goes my sem 1. Super fast man! And now i finished my summative and am having holidays. Busy downloading games to help make myself more occupied. Seriously, i don't like to feel FREE at all times. Not saying tht i like to study or what. In fact, i like to play also. Extremely love to play! However, at the same time, i nvr forget my responsibility as a student, as a jpa scholar. I really appreciate JPA for what they had given me. Without the scholarship, i would nvr dare myself to think of pursuing medical studies in imu. My parents would just nvr be able to afford the tuition fee to even sponsor me to study at local imu. And yeah, I know, i m very 'different' from my other jpa friends here. Initially, i really felt sad for it. Even depressed, no play-play here...i studied so MUCH (certain friends will know what does this mean) and this is what i get! I don't take things for granted. For everything i want to achieve, i worked very hard for it. Piano, study, fitness....these r not my talents, not congenital, it is just that u guys don't see the process through which i paid my efforts. For piano, i practised till i can feel the pain on my fingertips. For fitness, i worked out till my arms were almost harmed and once not able to move. For study, needless to say, all people would have gone through the same process as i did. Nothing comes easy, free in this world, on this EARTH. If u have the time to admire people for being so-genius to u, why don't u spend the time to mould urself into a real genius? 2 years in INTEC were like hellholes. Couldn't study the things, the ways i wanted at all. Sigh, sorry guys, i may have been too carried away and unhappy with that.......forget it. Now, this is my new life in imu. I want it to go its proper ways. Making new friends expecially, as i had really been running out of friends previously. INTEC wasn't my place, get lost! Lots of new friends i met in imu were great people i ever saw in my life. Jie Cong, Denise, Chong Yee, Tsung Wai, and more. Special thanks to Chong Yee. Dude, wonder if u will ever be able to read this post, i just want to thank you for holding the discussions to boost our confidence in preparation for summative. And yeah, always remember tht a 50 questions-paper cannot tell everything about u. And about me as well. We definitely know more than what came out in the papers. Let's continue to work hard and strive for our coming EOS 2, which is of no doubts a hard one. All the best, everyone! And welcome year 2011!! See u guys in no time. My new post will come sooner this time perhaps. Stay tuned! :-)

Amazing story!

This month has really been a long one. Frankly speaking, i didn't fully utilize this long holiday at all. Just did whatever that would befall on my mind, hoping the time could have gone by faster. It was very tiring for me to think of what to do next after next everyday. Everyday repeated doing the same things: u woke up in the late morning, opened ur eyes and allowed the first strike of the lovely sunlight, giving u the first excitation stimuli to ur retina. Ur brain was 'shocked' and thus awakened. U would then think of getting ur ass off the bed, so another wave of nerve impulses were transmitted from ur hindbrain, imposing u with the urge and ability to control and balance ur body movement and to move around. After that, ur brain made u had the consciousness to eat, and u would go and grab whatever foods u found on the kitchen table. Ok, now u must be fully awake and ready to start all shits u wanted to do for that day. But u could not recall that u had any outings with friends, so what could u do?? When u were still fumbling hard for ideas, at this moment, u saw a light. It was so strong, that u could barely open ur eyes. U resisted against its radiance, looking for its source in ur living place. "come on come on, u r almost there.."u fought ur way to the source of light. "i will get u!" u mumbled in ur brain. It was radiating from the table in ur living room. Finally, u were there and forced urself to keep ur eyelids agape to see what was ahead. Hoho, the light was receding gradually, and it turned out to be an object which was: small, blackish grey, equipped with many coloured buttons and light. A TV controller! (oh crap, i also dont know what i m writing about now...) wow, u could not describe how did u feel that moment! The enthusiasm was blazing in ur heart, with ur soul! This was so amazing! What a glory! This gave u the strength to move ahead, and take hold of the controller. And then, u pressed the "Play" button. Another miracle had occurred. U saw another blaze of light. Too strong! And it was accompanied with sounds. Immediately, u felt the numbness on ur legs. U were so touched by its presence. U wanted to bow to greet its presence. U wanted to honour its presence. Next, u felt the bending on ur joints of the knees. U fall , with ur ultimate sincerity..........onto the SOFA. There were flashes on the TV screen where the light came from. After a moment or two, it came to a time when u could see a distinguishable title on it: 金装四大才子。haha, there u r, u falled for it. Then, u were faithfully witnessing the miracle for the rest of ur day. What a big sacrifaction! ....wondering how long u had been there, the hunger had stroke. U turned around and looked at the clock. Wow! It was amazingly 8pm now. U turned off the TV and had ur dinner. So delicious, as the sayings go: food tastes the best after a hardcore of works. After that, u went to ur pc and online. Logged in to ur favourite facebook, or ur msn, or whatever crap, plants versus zombies, blah blah blah, until it was the time for u to go to bed. This was the day when u had no outing. Lets call it a day. I m very tired to write ady. Bye bye!

Moodcode: U should know what i want to do. :p

谢了，朋友们。

转眼间就过了两年。两年前的同一天，我独自一人来到Cendana。还记得，当时的我，还是跟以前一样，非常没话说的，整整安静了整个礼拜。还记得上学的第一天，我独自一人，选了一整排都没人坐的座位。简直就是比皇帝还要架势。结果呢，不久后我还是被数学老师逼去跟别人坐在一起，而且还是跟女生一起坐，我简直是很不习惯。。。。。后来，认识的朋友越来越多，说实在，我自己也不敢相信，因为我打从心底就根本没想要交那么多朋友。因为这对当时的我来说，拥有太多朋友是一种负担。我并不是那种喜欢跟别人打交道的人。又后来，我参加了一些课外活动，借此认识了其他朋友。。。。以下这些朋友们算是陪我走过这两年的伙伴。这些朋友们，以后多数不能再见面了。闷了，所以随便介绍一下，纪念纪念。谢了，朋友们。谢谢你们让我记住你们的名字。:-) :-)


他是Larry Nyanti. 可算是我在INTEC最好的朋友了。他什么都会。读书，音乐，运动他都行。

她是君如。是在INPRO game认识的。人是看起来很乖，可是不知为什么她老爱跟我顶嘴。

Aliff。我的同学。一个吉他手。

Hisham。我的班长。是一个很幽默的人。

Jonathan Wong。我的housemate。看他样子乖乖，其实他最会玩。所以，人不可貌相。

驻杰，最左边那位，我的室友。平时都在读书，还算乖啦，只是有时候。。。。hmm....

顺明，我的神经houmemate, 最爱发神经的就是他。时常talk craps. 可怜jonathan wong。

他是Bloody Kong。也是一个白痴，可是却很聪明。我的physics都是他教的。

他是goh. 也是INPRO game认识的。有时会一起去琴楼练琴。

Mahen。对科技非常有认识。想买laptops或手机问他就对了。

Jenny。erm....我只知道她说话很快。嘴巴简直像机关枪一样。。。看她的嘴巴，又要射了。

Fong Hei。忘了是怎么认识的，可是有些时候都是跟她和goh去练琴的。算了，有她在全部人都要靠边站了。lol....

pw and ph. 之前常一起去逛街，还好啦。

短短的日记

这三个星期里，几乎每天都有考试。不过，我已经尽力做好自己的本分。长话就短说，反正我也没像以前那么会写了。

第一件事情，Plants versus Zombies!!! 考试期间，我就玩这个game来release tension。妈的，那个死giant死命丢baby, 死diggers一直钻地来backstab我，害得我的plants一直被咬挂掉。最衰的是，辣椒和番茄已经被我丢到破产，但我还是破不了30flags! 说得也奇怪，明明是我在玩着，但是我的宿友jonathan看得比我玩得更紧张。讲到他，wah seh, 更够厉，在考bio的前个半夜5am，他敢敢在客厅开个人演唱会。柱杰和顺明已经睡了，而我才刚要上床睡。过了大约十分钟，我其实已经睡得蛮浓了，突然间被一阵鸡叫声吵醒。真要命，我已经累得像鬼那样。本想出去叫那个家伙检讨一下自己的歌声，但是我真的很累，下不了床。气死我了，本想随便抓起一个手机叫他diam diam一点，鬼知道两个手机正在关机充电。没办法了，只好抓起枕头直接往头盖。。。我真的KO了。第二天，我们三个找他算账。哈哈，幸亏当晚顺明有跑出去，让我们大家有好觉睡。。。

接下来的日子都好平常。星期五，我跟室友跑出去看戏。当晚就回到家里。没办法，最近我时常失眠，好难入睡。第一次觉得床是那么的硬。唉。。。接着，我跟妈妈谈了许多。都是些关于外婆的往事。我觉得很感慨，原来，我外婆以前是做帮忙人家收碗筷的工作来维持家里的开销。。。难怪，外婆的为人一向都是任劳任怨。我的确觉得很难过。小时候的我是多么的不体谅她。不过，外婆从来不生我的气。。。我的外婆从来没受过教育，不会认字，但却拥有德高的人格。我很爱我的外婆，有时甚至多于对父母的爱。从小到大，我多数的时间都是陪伴在外婆身边。我的一日三餐都是由她包办。记得小学三年级，我时常不做功课，结果搞到要见家长。我很害怕，完全没跟父母亲提这件事，但我担心老师会联络他们，所以拉着婆婆陪我去见老师。。。中四那年，我的祖母去世了。是我第一个亲眼目睹离世的亲人。由于一年只碰几次面，我跟祖母并没有太过深厚的感情，但这已足以让我哭丧了脸。如果这发生在外婆身上，我。。。。可能真的会崩溃。因此，我拚了命也要读好书，做个医生。理由就不用我多说，相信每个人都能知道这种心情。。。然而，我所做的一切，都好像来得不太顺利。可能是不够努力吧。。。。

还有，刚巧家里的Monitor坏了，所以就去了Lowyat一趟，干了一台22.5寸的Samsung Full HD LED monitor. 呼！名字都威过人。 之前那台Dell总算告老还乡，服务了六年，已经很拽了。

呵。。。还有，要感谢一个小鬼。煮得还不错，只差我一点点。呵呵呵。。。。:-p



死Zombies, 我跟你拼了！

谢咯，小鬼。;-)

活出自己

今晚的天气真的是打从心底的冷，
我已经复习明天的考试范围，
一个人躺在沙发上，
静思，回忆着。。。
有些人在褒电话粥；
有些人呢，就喝完人家煮的鸡汤后，
跑来串我；
而我，却得在这里静思，
烦恼。
唉。。。
或许，我必须在处理人与人之间的感情上，
付出更多的努力和心思。
我很想帮我的朋友，可是在同一时间里，
我很可能因此而伤害另一个对我很重要的朋友。
对不起，那位朋友，我很想帮你，但我能力有限，
无法将问题连根拔起。
真的是心都碎了，
听着那位朋友的哭泣声，
然而，我却无法做些什么，
只能安静地聆听。
我，并不像别人拥有那么多朋友，
但是，
我却因此懂得朋友们对我的重要性。
我无法妥协别人对我的朋友造成的伤害。
如果可以，
我反而希望被伤害的是自己。
没关系，反正我所有表情几乎都是同一个样。
但是，请别再伤害我的朋友了。
如果可以，我有时真的想向主祈求他赐我一种能力，
把全世界的人都转化为开朗病，就像我一位开朗白痴的朋友！
最好是没得救了！
这样子每人都不会想太多，活得较开心点。
现在，只能默默地祈祷，
希望那位朋友在未来的日子会过得更好。。。
阿们。

不求活得完美，但愿活出自己。

麻痹

时间滴答滴答地过，
跨越了好多事情，
也挑战了不少极限。
这一年真的过得很快，
妈的，
一眨眼就从一月活到五月尾！
由始到终我都无法感觉时间在某一瞬间的流逝，
然而我知道它还是在操作，
从来没停过。
从一月就一直读到现在，
真的好累。
时间老人，可以休息一下吗？
让我喘口气也好。
我可以坦诚地说,
这一回,我又变了.
一直变来变去,真得好累.
比以往变得还要静,
可以去唱那首周杰伦的安静了.
在这一个学期,
我练琴练得比较凶.
没法子,我的秘密已经越来越多,
我不知道要找谁来诉说这些秘密.
毕竟,再难过,艰苦的日子,
生活还是要过.
人是危险的动物,无可否认,
只要话一说错就会完蛋.
钢琴就不同,我可以把所有的情绪都发泄出来.
它就只会在那里让我弹,不会反抗.
健利这个家伙一飞就飞到俄若斯去读医,
宗润这个王八蛋也飞到加拿大去读生物科技,
Daniel这个变态狂有女朋友就不睬我了,
Kennard这个神经病跑去US保护地球,
伟良不懂跑去那里叫春....
啊!!!!气死我啦!!!
想找个人跟我单挑手力都不可以!!!
没人要跟我玩了!!! :-( :-( :-(
还有一个乖宝宝.
平时见她diam diam的，
谁知道她可以在msn向我抛来一连串大炮要炸我！
妳，给我记住。
不过这样也好，
互相炸来炸去的，我至少不会觉得那么闷了。
有时，炸弹也是好料。
现在，光是读书就已经读到我麻痹了。。。
考完试后，我肯定要休息！
管它有什么鸟事情，我都不管了。
我只想用我所剩下的时间来陪伴那些快要出国的朋友们。
都已经计划好了。
柔佛，槟城我都想去！
等着瞧！！！

Mood Code: Sayang all people, kick Zhung Lun's butt!!

Ah...diary.

Heiyo! Another long time since i last posted...hmm...not too long also, relatively. hehe....okok, cut down all the bullshits, i m gonna make this fast. So, the first big event that came into my life was the holding of In Tale competition. well...i weren't really prepared for the competition ( oh ya, my band Pellucidion was involved in the competition also..) as i was only given the song list at 11th hour, which means last minute. blah blah blah...we managed to make it into the final battle, but we didn't win....i heard my friends saying that something was very wrong with the microphone. They barely heard the voice of vocalists...and the faulty setting of electric guitars, which i m not familiar with, no comments....what is more? went out with housemates for dinner. This seems to be not so special, but i just included it anyway. We seldom went out together. Oh ya...another very important thing to be mentioned. I can play songs by listening at last, though not so sophisticated as compared with larry, theng theng and jien lee, but i wouldn't give up. At least i ady learn to play the chords by myself, without theng theng accompanying me....thanks theng theng. :-) I managed to play a few songs by listening, 2 of which were uploaded into facebook. Still wondering whether i should upload the rest or not. It is great to be able to play FIR's songs by my own efforts. Kakak seemed to be happy with my recordings, so i feel great also. hehe yeah! She has become my motivation to move on and improve my piano skills...besides, we also had small feast ( domino pizza ) in class. I m not sure whether our chemistry lecturer was the one who paid for it or not. There were so many of them, all with different flavours. yummy....:p next event was Good Friday night in City Harvest Church. Walao yeah, almost attended by 40 of us from shah alam. However, we didn't manage to get into the house of god as there were toooo many people. 3824 of them, including us, of coz. And 211 decisions were made. Therefore, we just sat outside the hall and watched the 50 inch tv....I celebrated my grandmum's birthday on a Sunday. In Sunway's Shogan ( not sure for its name. damned expensive, and i m gonna blastlist it. ). Lazy to write, basically just ate Japanese Buffet with family and relatives...and then, had performance in RTM 1 lately. I wasn't involved as they didn't provide a keyboard. Anyway, i was there to support. Peace...Next event was wei jiann's birthday (21th April 2010). Lazy to write, just go and look at the photos. Nice party anyway...then, we had our last CA on 22th April 2010. Served as a keyboardist that night....nothing special came upon me after that. What i have been doing is repeating revisions for my coming A level exams. Boring life.....sorry for very jialat english in this post. Too long don't write posts ady, so i m wondering whether to use past tense or present tense for some events. muahahahahahahaha....jialat jialat jialat! :p :p :p

In Tale Competition

Pizza feast

Good Friday in City Harvest Church:

Grandmum's birthday

Last cell group:

Performance at RTM1:

Wei Jiann's birthday party in KFC:

Last CA:

Sending Ping Wen to bus station at 8am?!

Nah Aliff, kau punya katil semasa study leave!

Cedric's birthday breakfast.

谢谢你，乖宝宝。你还真的很可爱。lol....

Ken Nee, Zhung Lun!!!!!